It has been 6 months since we had to say goodbye to the most amazing Siberian husky I have ever known… He was such a brave and gentle warrior. He beat the odds against osteosarcoma for 17 months after he was diagnosed and he lived as a tripawd without once being sad. He enjoyed each day to its fullest – no matter what life sent his way. He was a very happy boy so filled with love & happiness right until his last breath. I will always cherish the sweet memories of Indiana and keep him living on in my heart forever… I miss him with all of my heart…. I love him so♥
Here’s to you my sweet Indy boy:
In quiet times I often sit
And find my mind adrift
To another place, another time
And oh! My spirits lift!
I see your happy, smiling face,
And that twinkle in your eye.
I hear you sing your favorite song
And I laugh…and then I cry.
Inside my heart sweet memories
Stay with me each day
I cherish, and I cling to them
For I miss you in every way.
Each thing I see…
Each thing I do, brings you close to me
For everything upon this earth
Brings Sweet Memories of you.
I imagine our reunion
Some day at heaven’s gate
It fills my heart with happiness…
But for now, I’ll have to wait.
Until my life upon this earth
And my work here is complete
Sweet Memories will keep me
Until at last again we meet…
I miss my Indiana more than words can say….
I miss my sweet boy each and every day…..
Sending my love to you sweet angel….until me meet again… xoxo
A poem to honor my sweet angel ~ Indiana: You will live on in my heart & in my soul forever. Oh how I miss you so!!!
Three months have gone by my sweet angel of mine…
You’re in the heavens and you make it shine…
Every time I look to the sky ~I see you smiling ~
And I will try ~ to be happy ~ although I still have tears…
And I will spread your love ~ throughout the years.
Sweet Indiana~ you’re in my heart every day ~
And you will always hear me say:
I love you deeply ~ I miss you so…
I was so sad to see you go ~but I know that where you are ~
You are at peace ~ you are my shining star.
♥ Written with much love from Indiana’s mom ~~Carol~~♥
Copyright September 2011
With many tears, I created this video to pay tribute to the most amazing dog in the world! Almost 3 months have gone by since we had to say goodbye and my heart is broken more than I thought possible. I miss those Indy kisses… I miss those Indy songs… I miss his sweet voice!!! I miss giving my big lover boy the biggest hug in the world – and never letting go! I MISS HIM
Indy was my soul dog and we were so very close. When he became a “Tripawd” our bond grew stronger than ever! To save his life for at least 4 months from osteosarcoma, we had his front left limb removed. This changed our lives forever…(for the bettter) and he lived 17 months!! We made the best decision and will always be grateful we did!! We had a miracle each and every day!!
I lived my whole life around Indy to give him the best life possible – filled with so much love! He taught us all about the power of love and how to live life to its fullest – no matter what! He was an inspiration to many and also to many fellow- Tripawds. He will forever leave paw prints in our hearts. I will spread the love and inspiration about Indiana and keep his memory alive.
Love from Indiana’s mom ~~ Carol~~
I LOVE YOU INDY ♥ ♥ ♥
♥ ♥ ♥FOREVER!!!!
AND EVER ♥ ♥ ♥
I wrote a poem to honor the memory of my beloved Indiana who has been my sweet angel for 7 weeks now… I miss him more every day and he lives on in my heart forever.
This poem is also to pay tribute to all of the wonderful tripawds out there!! xoxo
I am a gentle tripawd warrior
I am a gentle tripawd warrior…
Living life the best I can.
I am ready to face whatever I have to
Because life has chosen a new plan.
I am very brave…
and I am very strong.
Don’t be sad… because I am so happy!
And I will be … all day long!
I love you for the choice you made,
I am so grateful every day…
Don’t regret it for a moment…
For I enjoy life and I still can play!
You have given me a second chance
To stay here with you.
I am not sure how long I’ll be here…
But the quality of our love is so true.
Let’s enjoy every moment
Of this love we chose.
I will love you forever…
And that…everyone knows…
Written with much love by ~ Carol Roberts ~
Copyright August 2011
“The Spirit of Indiana will live on forever with so much love”
Love surrounds me as I try to get through the day without my boy. It has been 6 weeks and my heart is so broken… They say it gets easier… but not yet. I think of him all of the time and re-live so many loving moments with him in my mind. I cherish the very many photos I have and I watch his videos. I thank God every day that I took so many pictures & movies! I cry each and every day and reach out for him to comfort me with his love…
Indy’s last day with me started off with the good news that he ate his breakfast all on his own for the 10th day in a row! After a set-back in May, I was hand-feeding him breakfast and on a few occasions, dinner ~ but never once missed a meal! After breakfast, he wanted to stay out on the deck in our screen house with me. I dropped everything just to spend those special moments with him. We sat outside for close to 3 hours. It was a beautiful spring morning. I brushed him out, took a couple of pictures, and cuddled with him. There were many kisses exchanged & many I love you’s said!!
I left for a couple hours to take my yoga class & to pick up some treats and another squeaky stuffed animal for Indiana. I returned home and told him I had a surprise for him & and he was so happy! He was squeaking his new toy & had so much fun! I filmed this & also him singing & talking to me! Not to mention all of the cuddling, kisses and I love you’s that were spoken! It was such a nice afternoon! After a while he took a nap and rested comfortably by my feet.
At 3:30, it was time for his cough medicine & pain pill but he didn’t jump up for his peanut butter coated meds. I was worried but decided to give it to him as he was resting. He loved every drop! I noticed that his ears felt warm and under his chin too. This seemed out of the ordinary since we kept the air-conditioning at 65 to keep our boy very comfortable! (so we had to wear another layer – it was well worth it!) I called the doctor and they wanted me to take his temp “you know where”. I said I would keep an eye on him & would bring him in the next day if he was still warm. I also noticed that the past few days he was starting to cough in-between his meds – it seemed to be wearing off sooner. We talked about us increasing the dosage starting the next day. I wanted my boy to feel as good as possible & not have to cough so much.
At 4:30 I told Indy it was time for dinner and he got right up and inhaled his food right down it!! After his meal, he wanted to go outside on the deck in the screen house again & rest in his favorite spot! While I was sitting down cuddling with him, he started to cough more often and it had only been an hour since he took his cough medicine. He also started to get up and cough away from me so not to worry his mommy. He gagged a little too. I kept my eye on him and didn’t leave his side. I was very worried. At 5:30 he had coughed up a little blood. My heart sank and I called my husband first and then the doctor. I burst out crying as I was trying to be brave… They said to call them if it happened again and in the meantime, give him a pill for acid reflux, just in case… I then called my dear friend and when she asked if everything was ok – i said i wasn’t sure & burst out crying again. She said she was on her way over. We sat with him for an hour before my hubby arrived home on a later train. Indy jumped up to see him, gave kisses and went back on his cushion that I had outside..
At 7:30 he coughed up a tiny bit of blood and I feel it was God’s way of telling me that something was very wrong. I called the vet again and they said that they will be closing in 1/2 hour and we should bring him in knowing we may have to make a decision. I was crying and said: this is happening so fast! They responded on how it has been months and we both agreed how very blessed we have been that he beat the odds 17 months when we were only promised 4!! They also commented on how they have never met anyone like me who gave so much love to their dog and especially in his situation – that I have gone above & beyond with my Indy boy – he so deserved it!!
We were devastated but knew we were doing the right thing and it was for love. Indy jumped into the truck on his own and I sat in the way back with my arms around him for the whole ride… He did cough more & another tiny drop of blood was seen. My husband carried Indy out of the truck, but he trotted right in to say hi to his friends at the doctor’s office. Everyone there surely loved him & were all so sad… We were taken to the very back room where they had prepared a nice blanket for Indy to lay on. The Dr. was very surprised at how good our boy looked. He offered him cookies and Indy ate many. The doctor couldn’t believe he was eating the cookies at a time like this! But this was a good thing… He was not visibly suffering at all. The vet gave him sedation with an injection and his cough stopped. The staff stopped by to give him love and then we visited with Indiana for at least an hour and 1/2. He even barked for a few more cookies when we asked him.I was on the floor patting, cuddling, kissing & loving him “to death do we part”. I embraced every breath as he was starting to get tired. My honey then joined me on the floor & we both got big kisses from Indy. Those were the most cherished ones we ever had. We told him how much we loved him and that it was bedtime. He was looking at us with so much love and eyes were starting to close. I tried not to cry too much as I wanted him to know I was going to be ok (even though I couldn’t imagine living without him).
The vet shaved his back leg and prepared him for the injection to take him on his peaceful journey. I had him in my arms and he had his head up as I kissed him & embraced his love. He slowly nuzzled his head in my arms and on his front paw. He took his last deep breath and let it out with a very peaceful & relaxed sigh…. I held on to him for quite a while before I let go. My husband & I sat with him for another 1/2 hour as he looked so peaceful. It was just as if he was sleeping next to us. As sad as we were, we knew he was at peace. The blessing he was given was that he did not suffer. The blessing we were given was that we never saw him suffer. It was a very tranquil moment surrounded by love…
Indiana was truly a gift to us and everyone who loved him (and that was many!) He touched so many people’s lives and we all are so blessed to have had his love… Indiana’s love touched the souls of everyone who looked into those big brown eyes… To have been loved Indiana was so fulfilling and so special. He will live on in our hearts forever. I carry him with me wherever I go… We loved him so much that we said goodbye…but just …until we meet again on the other side…we will be together until the end of time. Until then, he will live on in our hearts and in our dreams. We will love you forever Indy xoxo
The spirit of Indiana will live on forever… his love surrounds us all and his legend will be honored. He is truly a gentle tripawd warrior who has inspired so many….He gives us all hope that a miracle can happen – he beat the odds for 17 months … when they told us 4-5! We were so blessed and grateful to have had all of that extra time to love him. I worked my whole life around my boy and gave him the best treatment to fight this devastating osteosarcoma … I gave him all my love! ♥♥♥
Indy’s birthday was June 20th, one week after he left for his journey to the heavens above… Pretty soon I will post our last day together – which was a very special day ~ as every day has been with him. I find comfort knowing that he was happy and felt so loved until his very last breath!
When it was getting closer to his 10th birthday, so many friends of Indiana wanted me to celebrate in style with a cake and favors!! Indy was going to give out his famous Indy kisses!! Since we had to say goodbye before his special day arrived, I decided that I would celebrate his life and invite all who loved him. I ordered a cake & made up special memory cards with my poem on the back.
I had many friends who stopped stop by for hugs andthey wrote in a special memory book that is filled with photos of our boy on each page. They enjoyed the cake & I put a necklace around their neck with the special memory card attached… They brought cards, flowers and even plants to make an Indy garden! It was such a beautiful tribute! I had many friends write to say they could not make it – but they were there in friendship & love!
Since the celebration of his life, I have received even more visits, e-mails and numerous cards ~ they are still coming in the mail! I have had friends take me out to lunch and have received so many phone calls. It warms my heart to know that so many people, even ones who have never met him, just loved him & followed his amazing story… and are reaching out with love!
Indiana was featured in the local paper and they published the very long story that I wrote as the guest blogger at Tripawds as he was beating the odds for 17 months! Then another local paper featured him as well a few days later. I am truly blessed to have all of this love surrounding me ~ especially the spirit of my sweet Indiana!
I am so empty inside and my heart aches ~ but is so full of love. Indy has touched my soul and will always touch my heart. I know he is here in spirit and is watching over me. I feel his presence ~ but I miss those big hugs, songs, the “I love you’s”… and all of those Indy kisses.♥
It is with great sadness that we had to say goodbye to our sweet boy last night. With many tears I write this. My heart is broken more than I thought possible. I feel like I have lost my very best friend, my boy, who was everything to me and then some. Nobody on this earth has ever loved me like Indy did. He used to look at me with such love in his eyes. Every time I glanced over at him his beautiful brown eyes were on his mommy who he loved so much. I felt his love like no other love. We were always very close, we are soul mates. Just when I thought I couldn’t get any closer ~ we did ~as he became a Tripawd. Since he lost his front left limb, I used to be able to sit right up against his left side and he would cuddle his head right under my arm for the closet hug in the world. I cherish every one of those Indy kisses!
The rest of the pictures you see below were taken yesterday as Indy enjoyed his day with his mommy right by his side)
At a later time I will write more details about how I knew it was time to let him go. The past 6 weeks Indy has given us a few scares and certainly has had some ups & downs. But he has had many good days and the past 10 days were amazing – like everything was going to be ok. Even yesterday morning, before my yoga class, we were out for hours sitting on the deck, relaxing. I brushed him out & got many Indy kisses. On my way home I bought yet another toy and I filmed me giving it to him as he played with it & talked to me ~ saying “I love you”. I took a few more pictures, not knowing they were the last (of 100’s and 100’s!) I just wanted to hold on to every moment and embrace his love. Taking many pictures and videos will give me the chance to visit with him each and every day as I carry him in my heart.
I have been so very lucky that I am a Justice of the Peace and also have a very part time job as an administrator. This has given me so much time to spend with my Indy – especially during the past 17 months. I will cherish every breathe he took and pray he visits me in my dreams. And one day…I will be with him again forever….
Indiana is now with the angels running free with all of his friends… (And all of our loved ones that have passed before us). He will always touch my soul with love and live on in all of our hearts forever♥
Today Indy would have beat the odds 17 months and that has been a miracle and the greatest gift ever. He left for his eternal journey one week before his 10thbirthday. We will celebrate his life with so much love on Monday and always hold him close to our hearts. Thank you all so much for you love and prayers. I have met so many wonderful friends in this Tripawds family. I will be here for all of you…always… Indy kisses from heaven… ♥♥♥
With much sadness and much love,
Rene & Jim from Tripawds were so very sweet to publish my story about our Indy to honor him & give everyone inspiration that miracles do happen!
Please read Indy’s featured story and enjoy as we have so enjoyed his love♥
Indy has had a month full of ups and downs and good days and not so good days and some pretty amazing days. It has been a very emotional roller coaster for us! He has given us a few scares…but he keeps surprising us and shows us that he is not ready to leave us! My only wish is for him to stay with us living a good quality of life!
He is enjoying life right now, even though he has slowed down. Those things we take for granted are now milestones… Simple things like sitting up, playing with his toys, following me around the house, eating his breakfast without me hand-feeding him and much more. He has had many milestones this month when I didn’t think there would be anymore…He keeps surprising us each and every day. That I am SO thankful & grateful for!
In 13 days Indy will celebrate his 10th birthday! It will surely be a day to celebrate our most wonderful tripawd in the universe! I hold on so tight to him every time I give him a big hug & and that is very often! He is the most loving dog I have ever met ~ he touches my soul in so many ways & has taught me to be strong when I didn’t think I could be! I just love him so ♥
Sharing a poem I wrote as I sat by my Indiana today… the love of my life….
As I sit by your side
As I sit by your side, day after day
Embracing your love, and hoping you’ll stay…
I think of your life and how blessed we are
You are so amazing, our shining star…
I see you getting tired, I miss when we play
But all I wish, is to have one more day…
One more day of Indy kisses, and happy songs that you sing
One more day of your love, and such joy that you bring…
I hold on so tight, with tears in my eyes
I am not ready, to say our final goodbyes…
As I sit by your side, I pray and pray
For you to feel good, and to stay another day…
~written with love for Indiana by Carol Roberts (Copyright May 2011)